little seal girl

could you come home, babe
i will leave on the light 
sneak into bed and then shake me awake
so we can kiss goodnight

you had the cutest smile, love
that i have ever touched
i felt your dimple bloom against my palm
as you began to blush

oh little seal girl
love of my life 
you pretty bird
my world i 
made a wish tonight
out on the first star
my eyes could find 
i wished they’d give you back, love
i really thought god might

could you come here please
i will not lock the door
kick off your slides and sit down next to me
on your grandma’s porch

where i stammered anxious
“i just- i love you so much”
you turned to hide the tears formed in your eyes
said “baby, i love us”

oh little seal girl
love of my life 
you pretty bird
my world i 
am really terrified 

there’s just so much of our story left
we’ll never get to write
and all this guilt inside of me
it’s hard to breathe sometimes

you taught me what love can be
and truly saved my life 
but when you needed the same thing
where the hell was i 

oh little seal girl
love of my life 
you pretty bird
my world i 
made a wish tonight

i wished you could come home, babe
and i left on the light 
sneak into bed and then shake me awake
kiss me one more time goodnight

 

tithe

i need to find me a church
cause i live in sin
and could use some warmth
cause i’m cold as shit

i’ve been told to get
you have to give 
which is fine by me
makes total sense, but…

i’m wondering if
come time for it 
as they pass that plate around
instead of cash…

i tithe my heart
it’s all i got
i know it’s worth something
maybe not a lot
but to me it is
cause it never stops
telling me no dream’s too big

and it may have wear
but that shows its tough
and it’s been through hell,
but i’ll tell you what…

it does not give up 
and still believes in love
it always tries its best
which is more than enough

and it doesn’t judge
it will earn your trust
it might be all i got 
but it’s all i want

reason

i lay awake each night and think about
if you were still here how things might be
i don’t know who to tell my things to
you were that person for me

i still pick up the phone
just to learn again it won’t ring
everything i set in stone
has been reduced to fantasy

I would have stopped you if i knew
kicked the door in to that room
picked you up and brought you home
where all your dreams could still come true

i would have said until i’m blue
every reason you’re my reason
and the reason for everyone who
struggles to go on without you
i don’t know how to be
and i don’t know what to do

the sun and moon and you

hon i’ll give you the moon
so you can take it where you go 
a reminder when you’re scared 
to not feel so alone
when humans aren’t enough 
cause there’s bigger things out there

But I don’t know what to think
with your face pressed to my chest
as you squeeze my shirt to death
and you cry and shake so cold
beg to not let you let go 
when you fear what you love the most

whichever mountain that you choose
i know that i can make it move 
so point it out to me 
i just want for you to see
the warmth in me you breathe
and all the bright you gleam

but i don’t know what to think
to hear you love me with all you got 
cause you say you don’t got anything
did you forget your heart of gold
or your soul as pure as snow
and those light beams in your eyes

For Jasper

up there where the fast food is endless
how many girl dogs have you kissed
you’re probably chasing squirrels with rocky
one eye on mom always checking in

some days are hard
and when i get home
all i want to do
is kiss your nose
then get stuck on a walk
when you stand still posed
like you want to head left
further down the road

when i think of your voice j
my voice chokes
when your mom told you
she loves you most
and you smile at me
while you say “i know mom”

i love you
and i will always keep you close
i’m the lucky one
cause you’re someone i got to know